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!! [25 Jan 2009|01:45am] [ mood | drunk ] [ music | 45 grave ] ugh! I can hear my roomate having sex with his girlfriend, pretty loud if you ask me. my EX hates me and he doesn't want to talk to me. he says it's my faut why I feel depressed he doesn' tunderstand he has no clue how I feel. FUCK HIM. can somebody tell me how do I forget about him? 2 comments|post comment

post whore today [24 Jan 2009|04:23pm] [ mood | annoyed ] Im starting to hate saturdays now, im soo bored it wasn't like that when I was with him. but it's the past and it's over now. I wish I could move on but I caan't I wish I knew how to forget you! we've been talking everyday for the last 2 months since our "breakup" I mean, what are we? obviously not a couple but I still love you. I want to stop calling you because it just hurts more. I can't do what you want me to do. I just want to get over this break up, I love you but it's impossible for us to be together you want me to do all this things for you, but yet you haven't done NOTHING. you want me to be an hipocrite and to get along with your family because you are still a little boy well shit, I wish I could take a medicine to forget all about you. you've hurt me more than anyone else in my life, but yet I still forget about it and take you back every single time. I lied, I told you I was going to see someone else, because you don't care about my feelings eather why do I even bother with you. I want to stop loving you. It's for the best. I really don't want to call you anymore I can do this! I wont call you ever again. let's see how long this lasts. post comment

!!! [22 Jan 2009|03:56pm] [ mood | sad ] I've never been so depressed FUCK. post comment

:( [22 Jan 2009|10:50am] [ mood | melancholy ] in memory of Heath Ledger 4 April 1979 – 22 January 2008 He was my favorite actor and my crush way before he past away. He was unique,down to earth and hated fame. He care less about being glamorous,hated posing for the cameras,interviews,and all that. oh I miss him  :( I honestly don't care about celebrities or Hollywood, but he was different, the only one I lOVE, unfortunately he's not with us anymore. but I believe he is in a much better place now.   post comment

:( [19 Dec 2008|12:19am] [ mood | disappointed ] [ music | vitalic, trahison ] it really sucks not having you around I miss your laugh and how much we joked around and loved each other but now it's the end and we have to learn to be apart from each other and it's for the best we were hurting ourselves and it was just causing too much pain sometimes I think our relationship was in a way self destructive and co-dependent but that doesn't matter now. like you said we were young,naive  and wiser now. at least you think you are. i miss sleeping next to you, your beautiful hair, your eyes. but it's over now and it hurts. I was tired of dealing with your family and how much you step over me when I told you something was wrong.. you were a big part of my life and everything now seems like a dream and I finally woke up. now im back here facing my reality. im not happy or sad. just waiting for things to finally recover. with or withut you. I know I need to survive and try to be happy. maybe we did everything wrong in the beggining and now it's time to pay. I can't go back there and trust you with everything you say. cuz you've done it already. im depressed and really wish you the best. it makes me furious,jealous, that you might find somebody else someday but hopefully by then it wont hurt so much. you were everything. my soul, my heart, my partner in crime, my best friend even though everybody that looked at us thought we were the perfect couple we were far from that, we were really different i love your head and your kisses. why did this happen to us? i can't understand it, and never will. we were happy after all and now that i looked back it wasn't that horrible or maybe it was, maybe im just saying it cuz I miss everything and specially you soo much. I miss the cold weather, touching the snow, even though I hated it back then. maybe it was a mistake, we don't belong together after all. and that really hurts. post comment

[18 Feb 2008|02:26am] [ mood | uncomfortable ] last night we drank a ton we finished like 3 bottles between 5 people 2 jagermeitzer and captain morgan we were really fucked up I felt like shit and purge the alcohol to feel better I didn't hangover was baad and now my throat hurts a lot and im bloated i did pretty good today im so hungry right now but Im finally going to bed fuuckk I have to stop cuz my life wont be going anywhere life with him is just to precious to be wasted away. post comment

on a brighter note [14 Feb 2008|12:34pm] [ mood | bored ]  cute, pretty colorful photos make me happy it's a small world after all. post comment

first post [13 Feb 2008|10:38am] vintage photos spooky creepy dolls im obsessed post comment

[13 Feb 2008|09:35am] [ mood | content ]  add me and let me know so I can add you back.thanks :) 9 comments|post comment

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